I won't go into detail.
I'll try not to rhyme...
But here a a few scriptures,
to which I'm clinging at this time.
Galatians 6:9 And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.
~and related verses that have ministered to me just as much tonight.
Matthew 10:22 You will be hated by all because of My name, but it is the one who has endured to the end who will be saved.
1 Corinthians 15:58 Therefore, my beloved brethren, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that your toil is not in vain in the Lord.
2 Corinthians 1:4 Therefore, since we have this ministry, as we received mercy, we do not lose heart,
Hebrews 12:3 For consider Him who has endured such hostility by sinners against Himself, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
Hebrews 12:5 and you have forgotten the exhortation which is addressed to you as sons, "MY SON, DO NOT REGARD LIGHTLY THE DISCIPLINE OF THE LORD, NOR FAINT WHEN YOU ARE REPROVED BY HIM;
James 5:7 Therefore be patient, brethren, until the coming of the Lord. The farmer waits for the precious produce of the soil, being patient about it, until it gets the early and late rains. (NASB)
i will not faint or grow weary. i will press on and pursue my prize...because it's going to be worth it. it's gonna be worth it all.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
I DID IT!
i did it! i did it!
i am no longer an Elementary Education Major...well..almost. i still have to finalize my schedule...BUT in every other aspect i am now a Music Theater major! WOO!
i really feel that this is where i'm supposed to be. Education was just a means to an end for me (aka paying off my college debt). Yes, paying off my debt as quickly as possible is very important to me and i am totally willing to live in a van down by the river for a few years to get that off my name (and have WICKED AWESOME credit) BUT doing what i love for the rest of my life is more important. Not to say that i wouldn't be a good teacher..i would work my butt off for those kids. But i don't want to be that teacher who after 5 years hates her life. The students deserve better than that, and i'm paying too much money to not have a major i like.
Which brings us back to Music Theater. Super Stoked about this new adventure. And why am i going back to music after the utter failure of freshman year? I feel that i'm more mature and ready for the demands of Theory and Sight Singing now than i was 2 years ago. i have obviously grown and i'm more aware of my habits (good and bad).
--side note-- I got one of the leads in next semester's musical, Once Upon a Mattress. Now introducing... Lady Larken.
That has nothing to do with my new confidence...none at all.
well that's the news. i'll spill more about the show when it gets here.
current soundtrack: Once Upon a Mattress the musical
i am no longer an Elementary Education Major...well..almost. i still have to finalize my schedule...BUT in every other aspect i am now a Music Theater major! WOO!
i really feel that this is where i'm supposed to be. Education was just a means to an end for me (aka paying off my college debt). Yes, paying off my debt as quickly as possible is very important to me and i am totally willing to live in a van down by the river for a few years to get that off my name (and have WICKED AWESOME credit) BUT doing what i love for the rest of my life is more important. Not to say that i wouldn't be a good teacher..i would work my butt off for those kids. But i don't want to be that teacher who after 5 years hates her life. The students deserve better than that, and i'm paying too much money to not have a major i like.
Which brings us back to Music Theater. Super Stoked about this new adventure. And why am i going back to music after the utter failure of freshman year? I feel that i'm more mature and ready for the demands of Theory and Sight Singing now than i was 2 years ago. i have obviously grown and i'm more aware of my habits (good and bad).
--side note-- I got one of the leads in next semester's musical, Once Upon a Mattress. Now introducing... Lady Larken.
That has nothing to do with my new confidence...none at all.
well that's the news. i'll spill more about the show when it gets here.
current soundtrack: Once Upon a Mattress the musical
Friday, March 20, 2009
Blessed out the Whazoo
have you ever stopped to think how crazy blessed you are?
well today i have.
America. the very word conjures up ideals of freedom, liberty and justice. we are a blessed nation and we take it for granted every day.
My Family. Wow. I don't even know where to begin. the love that they share for this crazy girl writing this blog... i don't understand it at all...but they love me all the same. And i can't even begin to express how much i love them. (and i'm only talking about my extended family)
My Dad. I know he probably will never read this, but Dad, this goes out to you. You are the example of a Godly man in my life. I figured out a long time ago that you are not superman, you are not perfect, you are my Dad. And i wouldn't have it any other way. You have shown me how to grow through my flaws by growing through yours. You have shown me what a real marriage looks like. I know now that marriage is a full time job. But Dad, you have shown me how to succeed. Daddy, you have shown me how i deserve to be loved by loving Mom and i can't thank you enough for that. I love my mom, but i can trust always in the fact that you love her more. that is incredibly reassuring for a child to know. Daddy, if i probably should write a whole pages and pages about how incredibly blessed i am to have a father who cares. And how many times have i taken you for granted? Daddy, thank you for loving me. Thank you for setting the bar so high. You make me what to be a better person because you so want to be a better person. Thank you for loving your family with every ounce of your being. I love you more than i can say.
My Mom. Mom is more likely to read this, but it's still unlikely.
Mom, i don't know the girl i would be without you. You had the determination to take everything away from me to straighten me out. Thank you for that. Really. You know me better than i know myself. You are my best friend. and as i sit here crying as i type this, i can't find the words to tell you how much you mean to me. Your Sunday afternoon phone calls that get goofier and goofier as the weeks go on mean the world to me. i love being able to call and get boy advice or just spill about my day because i know on the other end you hang on to every word. Thank you for being the best example of a Godly wife and mother as you know how. Thank you for bringing music into our house. The memory of you practicing your violin always brings a smile to my face. i love how you always put your girls first, but seriously, go and have a spa day just for you. you deserve it. i love how you "get" my randomness. like this paragraph, for example... you truly delight in anything your girls do. i love you a million billion zillion.
My Sisters. the most likely to read my blog... ;)
Oh gosh, where to start? Well, you two... i've known you your whole lives...
Casi. you can make me laugh even when i don't want to. you constantly surprise me by you maturity in God. i can't wait to make more inside jokes with you...and you won't believe how jealous i get when i see you and christi making inside jokes without me! i always thought is was cheesy when people say "you are beautiful inside and out" but i can't think of a better thing to describe you. when you say you love seeing Jesus shine out of people's eyes all i can think is that you need to look in a mirror. i love you dearly, shmootzie-poo.
Christi. first of all, i want to apologize for being a crappy big sister to you growing up. i think the hardest part for us was our age difference. But i cannot tell you how many times i have thanked God in the last year because we are becoming friends again. i've missed you sweetie pie. i love your jokes, you are so witty. And my goodness i can't believe you are in high school! i love watching you and casi laugh and giggle and just be yourselves. i love love love you and can't wait to see you again.
my friends. Lord love them, they are saints for sticking with me.
Aims. i don't know how you've lasted this long as my roomie. i can't believe you are graduating and i won't see you every day for the rest of my life! God has huge plans for you. i love you dearly and i never, ever forget splitting a medium papa johns pizza with you and watching chic flicks until 4 in the morning. your laugh brightens my day and your heart after God inspires me. because i knew you, i have been changed for the better.
Linny. Oh man, oh man, oh man... you are probably the one person outside my immediate family that totally gets my random side. you always have something to say that speaks directly into my life (even thought you have no idea at the moment) i can't tell you have blessed i have been to be able to come spill my boy trouble to you. your godly wisdom helped me out of at least one sticky situation. i love you more than i can say...and if i ever make enough money to pay you what you are worth i am so commissioning you to paint/sculpt/create something amazing just for me.
Kim. i am so glad we were suite/room mates this year. i never would have gotten to know this amazing, brilliant, crazy woman of God. you make me laugh all the time (not just because of the little clumsy moments). you are the most genuinely sweet and caring person i know. i am so blessed to have you as a buffer (you know what i mean). this year has been one of the best years of my life and i am so glad i got to share it with you. i am going to miss you somethin' awful when you graduate. you do realize that you are the one i'm going to call at 3 o'clock in the morning when one of my kids has a fever and is throwing up... haha. and you can so crash at my house one day when you bring your crazy kids down to florida to go to disney. i love you tons.
and i would love to write more...but my eyes are now puffy and i must go.
i'm sure i failed in writing all of my feelings in the way i really wanted to...
i love you all.
peace out and pizza pies.
well today i have.
America. the very word conjures up ideals of freedom, liberty and justice. we are a blessed nation and we take it for granted every day.
My Family. Wow. I don't even know where to begin. the love that they share for this crazy girl writing this blog... i don't understand it at all...but they love me all the same. And i can't even begin to express how much i love them. (and i'm only talking about my extended family)
My Dad. I know he probably will never read this, but Dad, this goes out to you. You are the example of a Godly man in my life. I figured out a long time ago that you are not superman, you are not perfect, you are my Dad. And i wouldn't have it any other way. You have shown me how to grow through my flaws by growing through yours. You have shown me what a real marriage looks like. I know now that marriage is a full time job. But Dad, you have shown me how to succeed. Daddy, you have shown me how i deserve to be loved by loving Mom and i can't thank you enough for that. I love my mom, but i can trust always in the fact that you love her more. that is incredibly reassuring for a child to know. Daddy, if i probably should write a whole pages and pages about how incredibly blessed i am to have a father who cares. And how many times have i taken you for granted? Daddy, thank you for loving me. Thank you for setting the bar so high. You make me what to be a better person because you so want to be a better person. Thank you for loving your family with every ounce of your being. I love you more than i can say.
My Mom. Mom is more likely to read this, but it's still unlikely.
Mom, i don't know the girl i would be without you. You had the determination to take everything away from me to straighten me out. Thank you for that. Really. You know me better than i know myself. You are my best friend. and as i sit here crying as i type this, i can't find the words to tell you how much you mean to me. Your Sunday afternoon phone calls that get goofier and goofier as the weeks go on mean the world to me. i love being able to call and get boy advice or just spill about my day because i know on the other end you hang on to every word. Thank you for being the best example of a Godly wife and mother as you know how. Thank you for bringing music into our house. The memory of you practicing your violin always brings a smile to my face. i love how you always put your girls first, but seriously, go and have a spa day just for you. you deserve it. i love how you "get" my randomness. like this paragraph, for example... you truly delight in anything your girls do. i love you a million billion zillion.
My Sisters. the most likely to read my blog... ;)
Oh gosh, where to start? Well, you two... i've known you your whole lives...
Casi. you can make me laugh even when i don't want to. you constantly surprise me by you maturity in God. i can't wait to make more inside jokes with you...and you won't believe how jealous i get when i see you and christi making inside jokes without me! i always thought is was cheesy when people say "you are beautiful inside and out" but i can't think of a better thing to describe you. when you say you love seeing Jesus shine out of people's eyes all i can think is that you need to look in a mirror. i love you dearly, shmootzie-poo.
Christi. first of all, i want to apologize for being a crappy big sister to you growing up. i think the hardest part for us was our age difference. But i cannot tell you how many times i have thanked God in the last year because we are becoming friends again. i've missed you sweetie pie. i love your jokes, you are so witty. And my goodness i can't believe you are in high school! i love watching you and casi laugh and giggle and just be yourselves. i love love love you and can't wait to see you again.
my friends. Lord love them, they are saints for sticking with me.
Aims. i don't know how you've lasted this long as my roomie. i can't believe you are graduating and i won't see you every day for the rest of my life! God has huge plans for you. i love you dearly and i never, ever forget splitting a medium papa johns pizza with you and watching chic flicks until 4 in the morning. your laugh brightens my day and your heart after God inspires me. because i knew you, i have been changed for the better.
Linny. Oh man, oh man, oh man... you are probably the one person outside my immediate family that totally gets my random side. you always have something to say that speaks directly into my life (even thought you have no idea at the moment) i can't tell you have blessed i have been to be able to come spill my boy trouble to you. your godly wisdom helped me out of at least one sticky situation. i love you more than i can say...and if i ever make enough money to pay you what you are worth i am so commissioning you to paint/sculpt/create something amazing just for me.
Kim. i am so glad we were suite/room mates this year. i never would have gotten to know this amazing, brilliant, crazy woman of God. you make me laugh all the time (not just because of the little clumsy moments). you are the most genuinely sweet and caring person i know. i am so blessed to have you as a buffer (you know what i mean). this year has been one of the best years of my life and i am so glad i got to share it with you. i am going to miss you somethin' awful when you graduate. you do realize that you are the one i'm going to call at 3 o'clock in the morning when one of my kids has a fever and is throwing up... haha. and you can so crash at my house one day when you bring your crazy kids down to florida to go to disney. i love you tons.
and i would love to write more...but my eyes are now puffy and i must go.
i'm sure i failed in writing all of my feelings in the way i really wanted to...
i love you all.
peace out and pizza pies.
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